Life Sucks Pt 2 - @DrizzysHelper

Life Sucks

Last time I spoke on this topic I did it wrong and I owe u all apologies. Since that time a lot has happened. It's NFL playoff time again so when u read this for the second or 3rd time the Pats should have 6 rings. Anyways, let's get to it.

Life doesn't suck. That's the truth. If Life does suck, it's not life, it's u. That's a joke. But seriously Life is great. It's a new year and as many mistakes as we made in the last 365 days, we still here for another year. I thought life's joys were getting drunk having raw sex and wasting other people's time how they do yours. Again I was wrong........ don't get drunk.

It's crazy that I don't drink anymore but whats even more crazy is I don't miss it. My life just continued on like I had never drank a day in my life. The best things in life don't suck, they're free. Breath, light, even water, and if these aren't life joys to u, go awhile without any of them.

The thing that sucks about life is what makes it great: not knowing what's next. Unpredictability is life's trump card (used loosely lol). It's what makes life, life. How boring would Life be if u knew when u would be late for something or knew exactly when all the good times were scheduled.

That's hella wack. Live life the way it was intended: the way u have been doing. I'm not here to preach, I'm here to give useless advice: live. Live is the present tense of life and since it's a new year it can be a new you as well. Sorry if this wasn't "funny" enough of a read but the words are real. Signing off, the artist formerly known as iDWC. Later on.

This Letter Was Never Sent - @cierraanise

Dear you,

Stop apologizing, she's forgiven you a while ago. No need to be mad at yourself anymore, you're home, & you're trying. She's not asking because she doesn't need anything, she doesn't want to see the look on your face or hear the disappointment in your voice when you can't provide. You have enough, your presence was there while you weren't. She's not mad anymore, she doesn't have any resentment towards you. She says you tell her you're getting sick, & you need help. She wants you to know she's here for you, it doesn't seem like it but she has a weird way of showing you she's behind you. Focus on cleaning up, rebuild yourself, she's giving you time to worry about your health rather than hers. Your little girl is fine. She's gotten so big now, working, dancing, applying to schools, she's going somewhere you know!! Don't worry, you didn't miss anything, no major milestones, you haven't missed any at all. She still thinks about you, she hasn't forgotten you, she wonders and worries every day. Do you know you're the one pushing her the most. She doesn't say it or speak on it but I know she's thinking it. She's never said she's mad, she's hurt but she's been doing a lot better now. Or at least better at masking her feelings. She still loves you as much as her 7 year old self. She tells me she gets flashbacks of seeing you in you in that jumpsuit, she hates those. She thinks of the glass and the phone, I don't think she'll forget that. I can't tell she's been trying to move forward but it's hard for her. She's been avoiding you because she's afraid of having that conversation, she doesn't want to get all emotional in front of you. She's unintentionally built a wall that she wants to get rid of but she doesn't know how to. She's grieving but she won't let you see it. She wants you to be okay and doesn't want you to feel low, because to her you're still her super man. That never left her mind.

Sincerely, "she".